Just a look…

Terry and I were thoroughly savoring our Sunday together. We were feeling giddy after a visit from our good friends while running errands, purchasing new chaise lounges, getting them assembled, and freshening up the back deck area. After a quick trip to Steinmart, we were aware that our breakfast was spent, and decided to stop and get a bite to eat… late lunch, early dinner, one of our favorite meals. We stopped by a local restaurant at Town and Country, but we found out they are closed on Sundays, so we headed to The Greene to enjoy a well-crafted meal at a cute little bistro called Joya, only to find out that they had permanently closed two days before. Perhaps we should have headed home and heated up some leftovers, but we decided to check one more place… Brio… to see if we could sit on their patio, people watch, and enjoy a bite to eat there. Success!! We had a very short wait as they cleared a patio table for us. We got settled in with a couple of glasses of wine, and some artichoke dip. We were basking in the afternoon sun and light breeze, enjoying the giggles from a table with a little boy, and the parents appreciating his antics, there were other couples, and several other families. It was peaceful and joyful and we were feeling mightily blessed.

We placed our order shortly after, received our salads, and then we waited and waited. We were chatting and the delightfulness of the day created more patience than is normal for us! And quite a bit of time went by. In the meantime, several groups had finished their meals and began leaving, and new people began filling the empty tables. Two women that had been seated inside came outside to occupy the table immediately next to ours.

And so it began.

They started the next 45 minutes bad-talking their alleged friends, analyzing the sexual relationships of their alleged friends, and the sexual activity of their alleged friends, explicitly bashing their ex-husbands, and the male population in general, complaining about their children, and the weight of their large-sized bodies, and their doctors office procedures. Their tone was angry, and unhappy, and I felt deep sadness for them. But I couldn’t stop listening. The more time that went by, the louder they became, and they actually seemed to be turning their chairs so they were even closer to us.

Typically, Brio is more than efficient with their fresh food served in a timely fashion. When a manager came by to check on us, we let her know that we’d been waiting for an unusually long amount of time. She was very upset and very sorry. Thankfully no one blamed the kitchen. They were just completely honest about the fact that the order had never been entered. We seriously weren’t upset about it. We understand things like that can happen, but Brio took care of our meal anyway, and we were appreciative of their customer service excellence. Almost immediately after that, food was delivered to our table.

And, still, the women were yammering on. And on. And on. Anything negative, unhappy, foul, sour, vulgar, rude that you can imagine was discussed. I was truly stunned that two full grown female human beings would sit in public using language reserved for no one. I would chuckle every once in awhile at the absurdity of their conversation, shaking my head in disbelief. I seriously felt like we were being punk-d. “Housewives of any county”. Where are the cameras??? It was that ridiculous!!

And then all of a sudden, the louder of the two, talking about how sweaty she had been last weekend (?)… said…

jesus f-ing christ… {without my written modification}…

my face got red, my heart thumped loudly, and my head felt light as the spirit inside me bristled…

and I simply turned to look at this person… no words… just a look…

the pattern was interrupted and she viciously turned her vile tongue toward me.

There was a series of inconsequential mumbles and comments from the two of them, defensiveness driving them, but their words couldn’t hurt me. And although there was no judgment made on our part, nothing said, they claimed quite loudly that judgment should be left to “the higher power”…

at which time, my husband quietly stated, “You mean, the one you just cursed.”

And they were stumped. Silent.

I can tolerate a lot to avoid confrontation, and I’m aware of a thing called “freedom of speech” which they were clearly exercising their rights to. We could have moved tables, we could have left, but for some reason, 2 closed restaurants and a lost dinner ticket had us right where we were suppose to be.

They can choose to talk about their friends in an ugly, hateful, profane way,

but they can not talk about my friend, my Lord, my Savior that way.

And, without a sound, I was happy to let them know it.

With one question, Terry was too.

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Whatever your method is, whatever God leads you to do or say… stand up for what is good, and right, and true.

And Live Well.

My Heart…

I am a healthy woman! I AM a healthy woman! I am a healthy woman!

I feel that way! I look that way! My complete blood assessment and urinalysis says so too!

Yet my little blood pressure machine tells me a different story.

I was mystified. Honestly. My body mass index is perfect which means my height to weight ratio is appropriate. I eat wholesome, nutritious and mostly organic foods. But my blood pressure has consistently been hovering around 160/110. For those unfamiliar with blood pressure numbers, it means that I am classified as Stage 2 Hypertensive with an increased risk of heart attack, stroke, or kidney damage. I am unimpressed with that. Completely unimpressed. And concerned. Which causes my blood pressure to rise…

My dad and my nonna both took blood pressure medication, and even though I am related to them, my lifestyle is (almost) completely different than theirs was. I receive consistent chiropractic care, I choose to eat well with minimal grains and minimal sugar and minimal high fat animal protein, I don’t smoke, I don’t take any prescription drugs, or use any street drugs, and only enjoy a glass of wine very occasionally. (My son-in-law, Dr. Burns, tells me that could be the problem… I need to drink more! Ha!) I drink coffee, and I like to dine out, but for the most part, I would say, and I do say, that I live a healthy life-style.

Except that nasty blood pressure machine mocks me. Beeping and flashing it’s little heart at me…

So I have been working on a new equation… new chiropractic adjustment, fresh set of supplements, including adrenal support, chlorophyll, and valerian root, breathing music to lower my heart rate…

and these are my new best friends…

Yes… in fact, they are flat shoes. Yes… in fact, they are athletic shoes. Yes… in fact, I have been walking for 5 days now. Simply walking. In my quiet, comfortable neighborhood. For free. Enjoying the fresh air. And the benefits that I have seen in just a very short time.

WALKING. It’s hard to believe that something so simple could be so effective. I thought I was too busy for this in my life. I thought that eating pure and healthy, receiving chiropractic care, taking proper supplementation, and loving on my family, my friends and my God would be enough.

For two months, I resisted those flat walking shoes, giving those other new choices a chance to make a change. And then each day since Saturday, my blood pressure reduced by 5 points! Just from putting on those shoes and walking! Breathing fresh air, and exercising my heart muscle! It is producing what I perceive to be a miracle!

This morning my little BP machine sang out the numbers 130/87. No beeping. No flashing.

And I can live well with that.

Heavenly Father, Creator God

Sometimes… sometimes I’m not even sure where to begin….

so I pray through the power of God’s Holy Spirit…

Heavenly Father, Creator God, in Jesus Christ’s name, I seek you… I am desperate for your strength, as I search for answers that only You have… that aren’t even mine to know, so please just provide peace in the truth that you are in charge, that even when everything feels unbalanced and chaotic, that You see everything, that You know my needs, You know the Truth, and that You are still powerfully and righteously in control… I praise you more than ever, God… now more than ever… Amen

How do you live a decade in 3 months? A husband’s emergency surgery, the birth of a first grandchild, the diagnosis of lung cancer, a botched surgery, and the subsequent death of a father, a couple of kidney stones, an IRS summons, the completion of a youngest daughter’s high school education, the celebration of an oldest daughter’s wedding, and the return of family to their new homes… far away… while still running a business, and renting some property and striving to maintain equilibrium while your state of being is frayed and torn and is teetering towards destruction.

Survival was dependent on God alone. Pouring my heart into Him, allowing Him to rescue me from this emotionally broken place… as He takes me to family who understands, and as He places friends in my path who care, and as He shares His Love Letter with me in a personal and individual way through His Presence in the stillness of the morning…

And, to the enemy’s dismay, the wounds of my body and soul become healed… with thankfulness and joyfulness, hopefulness and faithfulness… blessed by the knowledge that God would never leave me nor forsake me, with my heart turned towards Him as I continue to pray to be used in every possible way for the good of His Glorious Kingdom… because of who He is, because of His Love for me… I am saved…

Pray and live well.